"gender is a spectrum!" is the "so what are you, like, a 40/60 bisexual? or like what's your breakdown" of gender models

I'm not even saying there's anything wrong with either statement as, like, a rough breakdown of experience ("if gender is a spectrum between male and female, I'm like..."/"if someone who's equally attracted to men and women is a 50/50 bisexual, I'm like...") but both of them are much simpler than the territories they respectively map.

like, how would I answer the "Are you, like, a 40/60 bisexual or what" question? that's just not enough flexibility. like you'd probably rate me as, like, a Kinsey 1 or 2, unless you've heard me talk about butch girls, in which case you'd be hard-pressed to rate me below Kinsey 5. Kinsey's scale did not have "bisexual as in, attracted to gay+ people" in mind

similarly, if "gender is a spectrum" you'd have trouble capturing what I (a woman) have in common with effeminate gay+ men (cis or trans)

I just don't think the answer is either

more (numeric) axes" (e.g., the 'gender unicorn' or 'genderbread person', if anyone here remembers such things) or

novel conceptual schema (e.g., I saw on Tumblr awhile back the suggestion to use 'solar/lunar' as substitutes for 'masc-aligned/femme aligned', & the development from nonbinary people using celestial/inanimate reference points for THEIR gender to people using celestial/inanimate reference points to UNDERSTAND nonbinary gender is what I mean)

and I wanna be REAL careful here: I don't care how you explain your own gender to yourself or to other people. that's not what I'm disagreeing with here. if you're stargender, that's fucking excellent. go off, quing!

but if we zoom out, look at gender as a social system we want to understand, two common approaches to expanding beyond the binary are "we just need a bigger number/more numeric variables," or "we just need conceptual frames which are unconnected to the binary"

I don't like either.

like, if we want to see gender-in-society as connected, as having central principles which help us understand the whole, it is not necessary that those principles be binary... but the gender binary IS central to the process.

the truths we come to understand about nonbinary genders SHOULD relate them with binary genders as part of a social system in connection, connections including suppression/oppression by binary gender frameworks.

heavy, gender-theoretic use of the F-slur 

heavy, gender-theoretic use of the F-slur 

heavy, gender-theoretic use of the F-slur 

heavy, gender-theoretic use of the F-slur 

so, what makes a category that many people understand as "a stereotype about gay *men*" nonbinary?

first of all, heterosexuality explains MOST nonbinary embodiments & ways of being back to itself in binary terms. this is how the gender binary cleans house: by sweeping the enormous space outside of the binary back under the rug whenever it strays out. it creates ways to think about 'true' non-binariness that are impossible, or close: never-gendered androids, mythological intersexed persons with

fully-functional genitalia for both insemination & gestation. those people who, in real life, heterosexual society marks as out-of-line, ideology STILL makes facile attempts to render in binary terms, only so that they can shore up the fiction of only-men-&-women.

we cannot treat the use of 'man' or 'woman' for a person as self-evidence. that would lead to disastrously-incorrect understandings of trans men & women, frequently labeled women & men; sometimes, those labels are self/deceptions.

back to using the F-slur for gender theory 

back to using the F-slur for gender theory 

back to using the F-slur for gender theory 

back to using the F-slur for gender theory 

What's the point here? Give me just a moment for a costume change.

[returns in a purple suit, green cravat, & green carnation with white-&-black clown makeup, red lips & green hair, grinning in an unhinged, one might even say 'twisted' way] We Live In A Society.

nonbinariness exists in connection, overlap, & ambiguity with maleness & femaleness. it has to, or how else could men & women fail? & it is very important that men & women fail; if they didn't, they'd never be punished back into line!

there are always blurry lines at the edge of the binary, conceptually & in real embodiment; that's part of what we mean when we call the gender binary a fiction! it must be imagined, creatively, into existence, its messy gradients forced into tidy dividing lines with confusing, tortured logic & with regulatory gender violence.

I've mentioned one of the border-zones for maleness; but at every edge there is a punishment for transgression, a reason to get back in line & to punish other failures.

Let's drag this back to where it started: how do I explain my gender, & how do I explain my sexuality?

I'd say about myself that I am a woman, & a trans woman, & that nasty slur I said so much earlier, & I would probably explain something about the path my gender trajectory took from being a 'nancy' marked from childhood for effeminacy, through drag & my relationship with lesbian modes of gender, to who I am today.

& I'd say that I am attracted, among other things, to gayness & gay ways of...

being; I might list such groups of people as 'men, butch women, [that nasty slur I said so much earlier], & non-binary/gender-variant/gender-nonconforming people' as people I am typically attracted to.

In other words: many points of reference, MANY more than two, referring to embodiments & people which have histories & social ties in which I am entangled, & which are best understood in connection & overlap & continuity & progression. complexity, & reference to the concrete, the flesh-&-blood.

again: as far as I explain my own gender history, personally, this is just what I prefer, what's important to me, what works for me.

but when it comes to explaining gender, broadly, the whole system, the heterosexual shebang & all of us living outside it, because we are looking for justice... I think you might benefit from looking at who you gender-in-relation-to, whose experiences of gender violence look like yours & whose don't, & drawing connections/explanations from there.

Enter discipleship

@byttyrs the conclusion you draw here sheds a lot of light on the conflict I feel over my gender. I'm an afab enby and trying to figure out what my gender actually is ends up being a lot of reacting against being default cateogorized as a woman, yet my experience of gender violence often looks like what women experience (sometimes specifically cis women), with the notable exception of being misgendered all the dang time

gender bork 

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