bumbervevo @bumbervevo@witches.live

tomorrow's stream will start sometime in the evening with a playthrough of Cave Story! I'll post about an hour before I go live. I'd be so thankful for any contributions, whether you're watching, donating, or sharing my stream with your friends!
https://www.twitch.tv/bumbervevo

hi friends! i will be doing charity streams starting tomorrow that will continue until next Sunday. my donation goal is $150, and 100% of donations will go to Campaign Zero. if the goal is reached, I will match 50% of the total donations by the end of the 14th to donate to the NAACP.
there will also be giveaways throughout the week for itch.io's Bundle for Racial Justice and Equality, which has a staggering 742 games, including games like Night in the Woods and Oxenfree! all you have to do is join and type !giveaway.

this mostly came up bc ive been playing pso2 with a friend and wondering why i didnt enjoy it as much and i think its mostly bc the overwhelming number of skills that you're given. it feels like you spend a lot of your time early and mid game figuring out skill trees/learning PAs/looking for better equipment. i mostly just feel useless until i get better weapons lol

I love monster hunter because the actions you have when using a certain weapon don't change as you level up; any given starting weapon has the same set of attacks as its end-game variants, and for the most part, these attacks are distinct and have a clear purpose. thanks to these two aspects, after playing with a given weapon for a while, you'll understand which attacks should be used how and when, even without looking up a guide.

realizing that i rly love combat games that take a "less is more" philosophy, giving you a single set of actions that are available to you at all times and having a huge focus on technique i guess? its hard to put into words, but there are a handful of games I enjoy deeply for certain reasons.

is it really so bad to just wanna play dragon quest and watch anime and read manga and listen to music all day

ive been very unsure of myself and havent had a lot of faith in my abilities recently, especially because im trying to stop myself from using self-depreciating humor and overall looking down on myself and its hard. its so easy to be like "haha i suck at everything" because then people just kinda know not to expect anything from you but i dont wanna like like that, yknow? even if you're not great at a lot of things, that kind of mindset will really make sure you're never great at anything.

idk what my issue is but bringing new people into my friend group always makes me feel...... sad?? for some reason?? i do that thing that i HATE where someone new comes in and you get all pouty bc they're getting the attention
its good though bc it keeps my ego in check and stops me from thinking too highly of myself. its a sort of reality check i supposed

jesus fuck, compiling wine-osu takes AGES

we only need two and a half pages at most; one and a half for our arguments and opposing team questions, another for our sources. we're at 4 full pages right now.

my debate partner is gonna make me rip my hair out
our debate brief is already bloated and has way too much on it and shes adding MORE
we're supposed to meet at 2 and I went out of my way to text her and make sure she was available and she's ignoring me and working on the brief
jesus fuck i cant wait for this to be over. i dont even care, im just gonna hope I can carry the debate hard enough to keep an A or just take a fat L and drop to a B
ive literally done all that i can do to. this is so frustrating

tfw no japanese to english subs on a video so you have to translate auto-generated subtitles into english

i have a whole ass debate and a test tomorrow and im absolutely not ready for either
osu! ruined me

i dont know if its just my own perception of their texts, but all my friends sound so much grumpier nowadays lol
i guess it's reasonable

so I just now found out about osu!lazer and holy FUCK it's so nice to not have to play with shitty Windows latency or to have to rely on WINE for everything
wiring that shit through JACK and I got an S on a song I was struggling to get an A on
i was so sure that my timing just sucked ass and I needed to work n that. nice to know that's not the case