🍒Rowan🍒 @RowanBerry@witches.live

Hello, everyone.

Twitter has been eating away at my happiness, so I bounced from my old currently-shut-down witch instance to this one.

My name is Rowan, and I'm interested in video games, books, anime, and a whole plethora of other things. Nice to meet you! #introduction #intro

And like... where exactly am I jumping ship to? According to the instance list I have the choice of staying with like 3000 people or moving to a witch instance with like... 20 people.

There's some really fucked up expectations here from people who are genuinely angry, but have no intentions of actually communicating beyond anger.

I'm sitting here vibing while people are talking about defederating from witches.live and it's like... you can't just stir drama and then refuse to provide any evidence for it? Like more props to ya for not putting up with people's bullshit but... if you want people to leave an instance, you maybe have to try to convince them a LITTLE.

Ah yes, my breasts, also known as The Condensation Zone™️

"No you don't understand it's a metatextual subversion of the harem genre, the main thesis of the piece is the ways we protect our true selves under layers of archetypes so that we can fit into social norms— wait where are you going"

My guilty pleasure is Monogatari Series, and the only reason it's a guilty pleasure is because every time I mention that it's my favorite anime I have to explain specifically why I enjoy it and am not just the Bad Kind of Horny

Hehe, my pupils are dilated and it's really bright

Also I need glasses, whoops

Disclaimer: This is not a sarcastic post, and I genuinely support any TTRPG project that wears its heart on its sleeve like this

Now THIS is content.

Stimming normally: Happy lil verbal ticks, bouncing my leg, fiddling with things :)

Stimming while depressed: My hand twitches uncontrollably when I'm lying on my side. Sunchips feel good on teeth

Stimming in the manic burst after the depression wears off: If I don't do pushups in the next ten minutes I am going to create a new kind of parkour. I will now proceed to clean the entire apartment

My earlier post legit snapped me out of the dissociative state I've been in for like a week and I instantly felt the need to exercise for a hot minute and then go outside

It makes me really happy when the static gets pulled away and I start seeing the protests as a force of positivity and good in the world.

There's hope, and it makes my heart ache, and it pulls reality back into focus in a way I really need right now.

So when I look at games that I want to play, I naturally gravitate towards the charming and positive. It's a message to my brain that, despite everything, we are making progress.

And I've sort of gotten to the point where the television static is my sense of emotions now.

Systemic nightmare violence out of the worst dystopia novels plays out of every news outlet, every day. The world isn't ending, but we're unearthing so many festering truths that it feels like it should.

Day in, day out. Television static. Violence and misery blend fiction and reality, because shock horror means nothing when you can't escape from it.